you feel old. not mentally, because you really are more of a ten years old than a twenty six, but your body wearies ..
every bad thing you do leaves a mark on you. and you have to wear it your whole life, because it won't disappear..
and by now you are covered with such signs.. they are all over you body from head to toe.. new ones make it even worse.
you had thoughts of turning on the good side for a change, but the bad side keeps you going, even though you can never tell for how long.
you don't even have a plan either; you have no clue where you're going.. just a mild idea for a life, but you don't know how to pull off the great ending.
and you woke up in the middle of the night missing that someone who isn't there next to you, not knowing what to do.. or anything at all..
but, with all strenght left, you go back to bed and dream again about your death.
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